Looking for an answer? Me too.

Goooooooooood evening my loved ones. Dick is back. Sorry I was terribly stuck in the deep blue sea of EXAMS!!!! Alright I admitted I was survived. Come on, ways to go, Dick. I loved it, supposed to, had to, forced to and they've become a loved to xDDDD

In my life, since i was born until nowhere, I have made many many many many many friendssssssssssss. Creepy, kind, selfish, genius, helpful, buddy buddy and lotsssssss. It does not has a number, isn't it? And yesterday, when I was asked to answer a question by Miss Maria, '' what is your greatest success since you were born?''. And I told her proudly, with my nose held high in front of many classmates: '' I have made loads of friends. And I love all of them with loads of loves.'' They thought it was a very funny joke but not to me indeed.

Seriously, I am the one who cherishes every bond more than anything, not money, not fame, but merely bonds. I believe this is the only thing that I have inherited from my late father. And it just couldn't easily take off easily out of my personalities.

But unfortunately, I made a few mistakes on this matter. And I have no idea how to make amends. Firstly, my brother, Eric. I felt sorry about I couldn't do a thing to inspire him. I've been trying so many thing to put him on the right pathway. But too bad, he didn't get good results on PMR. And, he felt sorry about that as well and tried to escape from us.

Next is my friend, squash queen, Mi. I really don't understand why she enjoys saying words to hurt my feeling. I might not look so but inside me was a mess. I thought many times, I never hurt her, I never say bad things about her, I never give a damn about her, but she just hates me so much. I really afraid of the hatred from other people, especially my friends, I really did.

Now I realise, I am not good enough. I am not aiming for perfection, but just want to be acknowledged. Well, do not lose it. I keep telling myself  ''DO NOT LOSE IT!!!!'' If i give up here, where is my future? There's no power greater than the will of living. Live! Live! Live! Love! Love! Love! This is LIFE! Do not lose it. And my dear God, please give me some guidance form above thus I will begin my tomorrow with that usual kiddo smiling face xDDDDD

I hope you will find your answers soon, just like me. Seeeeeeeeeeeee ya my dearsssssssssssssssssss  and ROCK ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN xDDD